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Sep 04, 2012 - 1 comments

I've been really depressed lately and it's been reflected in my weight gain. The worse it gets, the more weight I gain.

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by crinklenose, Sep 04, 2012
PA weighed me at my dr. appt. and said I was 203. She's concerned about the weight since I weighed 180 in July. I'm so ashamed about it, but I also know there's nothing I can do about it while I'm so depressed. I'm not sure whether to berate myself for it or just cry quietly every few hours. I just can't leave the house unless I have to. At least I still CAN leave the house, but I am so sad all the time and sometimes food makes it better for a little while and two minutes of some kind of satisfaction in a day of wishing I could just be done with all this pain means a lot. I hate the helplessness I feel. I've tried everything I can think of to get better and I think I'm just gonna have to give up and accept that I'm going to get fatter and fatter and stay depressed my entire life.

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