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Sep 07, 2012 - 5 comments

I wish.  Having the kind of days where I want to hide under the bed...permanently!  Like when I grocery shop and the cost of food has me wondering if there isn't some way to just give up eating entirely to avoid the stress!  

Forgive my belly-aching...just feeling low.

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by margypops, Sep 07, 2012
aww Katrinka Glad to hear from you I thought you had gone ...I am sorry you are feeling low anything we can do ?

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by margypops, Sep 07, 2012
you are right about food, I just got back from Friday shopping I am trying to get a store cupboard together ,wowo I spent a lot ..Gas is over $4 here now aswell

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by katrinika, Sep 07, 2012
I leave the house as little as possible to save on gas.  Not good, really.  

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by margypops, Sep 07, 2012
Chance to get walking, what about cycling ,I dont use the car more than I have to now ..I went for shoes wow what happened they cost an arm and a leg

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by katrinika, Sep 07, 2012
You're right....exercise.  One of the problems of being out in the boonies in NC is that the only place to walk is along the highway (yuk) or next to a boring agricultural field (often wet and rough walking)...everything else is covered in poison ivy!  The closes thing to a park near me is a playground and ballfield.  I'd have to drive 45 minutes to get to a park with walking/biking paths.  Too hilly for this old lady to get on a bicycle.  

Summer means I can get away with dollar store flip-flops... 'nother story in a couple of months, but I have some stuff I can dig out of storage.  

My problem is, I think, loneliness compounded by the fact that it's September.  today is Ray's birthday...three weeks from now the anniversary of his death.  Another thing about rural NC is that I'm surrounded by close-knit families that have no concept of bringing an outsider into the family circle.  Church helps, but only when something is scheduled.  Been a loner too long...it's a habit as hard to break as any other.



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