Mar 07, 2008
I am posting this under the success stories thread as well. Anyone else ready to dive in?
Some may feel that success stories are when you are "cured" of your anxiety. I like to think of success as learning to manage anxiety. For me that's the key. I recognize that a level of anxiety is always there, there is anxiety if everyone.. it's just some people manage it different than others.
A little background - My intial adventure with anxiety started about 5 years ago. I had gone through some major life changes, my mother and my mother in law ( both who lived with me) died within a couple of years of each other. My youngest child was off to college, and my middle child moved out to be on his own. Since I identified with being a care giver which I was since both of the moms had health issues, the changes that occurred threw me for a loop. My identity was gone (at least that was my perception) I know longer knew who I was. There were some personal relationsip issues going on as well. I went to my family doctor not feeling well and complaining of palpitations and a host of other symptoms. He prescribed a well known anti-depressant which I did not tolerate well at all. Ended up in crisis center twice because I thought I was losing my mind. I was promptly weaned off of it and headed to a therapist for some therapy. It helped immensely and I learned quite a lot. My personal opinion is I don't think you can get better with just medications. You need to find the source of the anxiety and learn to manage it.
I was doing well for quite a few years until August when I suffered a health crisis and the anxiety reared it's ugly head again. I wasted no time getting my butt back to the therapist. Am I managing it now? For the most part. One of the ways I could tell I was improving was this, when I first started therapy my life was timed from one therapy appt to the next. As I improved this changed and I no longer counted the days until my next appt.
Here are the thoughts that work for me
- Understanding that our perception is our reality. Change our perception and we change our reality
- Accepting that 95% of what happens in my life is out of my control. The only thing I have control over are my beliefs, my values, my thoughts and my feelings. Meaning, how I react to the things that are out of my control.
- Learning to accept loss - it happens to all of us from the time we lose our baby teeth until we die. This means I don't have to be strong all the time. It's okay to be sad and to mourn.
- accepting that things happen the way they are supposed to be happen and that where I am in life emotionally and/or physically is exactly where I am supposed to be.
- And the most important thing of all - Believing that I am going to be okay NO MATTER WHAT
If any of this helps someone just a little bit than I am glad I took the time to get my brain in gear and write it out.