Mar 08, 2008
i have just got out of bed
pathetic really because its lunch time.
last night was good
YOU WILL BE PROUD OF ME!! (well i hope!)
one of my girlfriends took me to the police station to report the rape
even though its been just over a month
they said it wasnt too late
we were there for ages
i havent made the statement though...wasnt feeling strong enough
and it was late by then too- after midnight.
Have i done the right thing??
i nearly flipped when she mentioned 'going to court'
id die if i had to see that guys face again.
IM SOOOOO SCARED!!
so then we went home
but then one of ny 'guy' friends turned weird..
(he was asleep at my house- didnt know about the rape and was asleep when we left)
he had no idea where we went.
i wasnt telling him about what happened.
Then he woke up
got all pocessive
and reminded me of 'that night' when 'it' happened.
so i flipped out
locked myself in my room
and said i wasnt coming out til he left.
(Anxiety at its worst)
he didnt leave for 9 hours
i was so scared... he was banging on the door and stuff
drunk i think
i dont know but i was soooo scared.
anyways. i am going to have an apple and a weetbix.
do some study
and go for a run.
Dont wan to think about food at the moment though
stomach is churning.....
scared and awaiting for the police to call me
....its not too late to back out...
..but ive come this far...
arrrggg fighting with yourself gets you no where heyy.
ok now im ranting
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