So, today is Monday, and I have decided to look at Mondays as if they were Fridays...in a positive way. I started on the 3 pill a day dose yesterday, and although the kids and I were at home all day bored out of our skulls, I didn't have any cravings! I see that talking about my addiction to anyone that will listen helps, and after the first 7 days of crying incessantly, the panic attacks are finally subsiding. I am only having to take 1 Ativan at night, which is normal for me. I feel like life is a beautiful thing, and I was wasting the last 5 years on being on some sort of painkiller for the day instead of getting out and enjoying myself. I notice that neighbors and friends are commenting on how good I look , which in turn makes me want to take my daily shower and put on a little makeup. Through the whole addiction process, I didn't realize how much negative I was telling myself, and how much I really didn't like myself.
So here's to a new week, taking it one day at a time!
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