Mar 10, 2008
When I first started taking vicodin, it was every once in awhile to get a little high, then slowly I began taking in everyday no more than what I was prescribed, eventually it became so bad I had to go to 2 doctors to support my habit and was still running out. I ended up stealing and lieing to my husband about his scripts. I would tell him that I wasn't on anything and I was. He would always find out and he is at wits end with me. He his seriously ready to leave me, but he is a hypocrit. He is an addict too. He would take my pills when I would have them and then lie to me about it. I wouldn't say anything to him unless I had absolute proof that he was lieing to me. So when I would confront him and say that he lies to me, he would say that he doesn't do it as often so it isn't as bad. We both need to clean up for good for our son who is 9 months old today. If I clean up and he doesn't I don't know if I can stay it will be much too tempting to try and steal some from him. (He hides them on me and locks them up) Thankfully, because sometimes I just want one so bad I search through everything and would make up a lie to get 1. I hate this when can I be the person I used to be not obsessed by drugs and when I can get high? When will I feel normal again? I truly hate who I have become!!! Help me, I am drowning in my own guilt.