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Dec 22, 2012 - 0 comments
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I just found out that a co-worker with less seniority got to double shift last week.  I told the full time sup that I was upset about it and then I heard from Tommy that it happened again. I was hoping that Teresa and I could file together but now Teresa's backing down.  I tried to talk to my parents about whether or not I should file but it just made me more mad and depressed.  Seems like the supervisor that overlooked me (Shawn) has something against me.  Word on the street is that now that he's back, he might become our supervisor after peak season. If that happens, I might get to work some double shifts but I'd have to deal with Shawn again, which I'm hating. Tommy told me yesterday that Shawn wants to stay on the midnight shift which probably means no more double shifting.  The whole situation just makes me hate my job. And at the end of my conversation with my parents about it, I realized that I'm stuck at UPS. I've put out tons of applications and nobody will call back and I have no clue why they hire other ppl instead of me.  I just know that I've tried multiple times to find another job and it never worked out.  The idea that I'm stuck at UPS until I retire makes me want to jump off a ****** bridge.

Add to that the fact that we're not celebrating xmas this year cuz my parents would rather be in Tulsa.  I'm sick as hell with a cold, gaining weight and my self-esteem is quickly plummeting. I haven't really been out of the house in months, it seems like the few ppl I did talk to have disappeared. Facebook is no longer a social outlet option. And I just cried thinking to myself, "What's the ****** point?" Whoever said life is suffering wasn't lying. I'm so tired of this ****. I just keep gettin screwed and I can't catch a break...

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