Dec 23, 2012
Well, first day of 4 pill behind me. Was a pretty good day. Was at home by myself most of the day. Daughter went to a annual family christmas caroling party. I knew if i went all i would to is bawl and have to answer questions. Im not ready for that right now. Today is Sunday, and i haven't accomplished very much. Im feeling pretty good today. Still not eating very much. Depression keeps getting in my way. I made a discovery today from God. Instead of looking at my husband and all his faults, i had to take a look at myself and all my faults. I have to better myself before i can go on. I have hurt so many people in my destruction and hope to make amends to all. Mostly to my husband and daughters. Im so ashamed of myself and my behavior. I trust God will see me thru this and i just have to let Him take the wheel for awhile.