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Jan 02, 2013 - 1 comments

Still sober but, still craving. I think about drinking again but I try to remember what drinking does for me. It's hard and lots of times I hate myself for being a alcoholic. I don't understand how I could want something that breaks me down so bad.
It really angers me.

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by aheart, Jan 07, 2013
Have you gone to any AA meeting? They can help you understand why you crave something that hurts you. They will help you stop hating yourself for it. One thing that I heard over and over in those meetings is that they consider being an alcoholic a gift. I had a hard time wrapping my brain around that one too but if you go more will be revealed. You should be so proud of yourself! You have given everyone that you love such a beautiful gift. My son has ten years clean and he has never been so happy. As you get more time you will too. Wishing you the best in your new life!

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