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Jan 20, 2013 - 3 comments

Since I was discharged from the hospital I was battling a full-blown postpartum depression (never had anything like this before). Anxiety attacks were the hardest part complete with chest pains and vomiting. After about two weeks on advice of adgal I managed to identify the triggers: I think going home while leaving twins behind in NICU was making me sick. It was hard not being there for all the day and night feedings.   I am basically back to normal now. Having Margot at home helped and William will be discharged tomorrow after a 20 day stay. I still need to restore my relationship with Anna after a 6 weeks hospital stay. Physically I feel OK although prolonged bedrest did bring my activity level way down; I am getting back to normal slowly...  
In the end, Margot spent 10 days in NICU and William 20.  Margot had very minor issues: one apnea episode and too sleepy to eat.  William had beathing issues, minor apnea, eating issues (could not suck, swallow and breathe at the same time and he still can't) and tachycardia (rapid heartbeat).  He will be discharged tomorrow with a beta blocker that he will be taking for a few month; cardiologist told me he will outgrow it by 1 year or sooner.  
Overall, both twins should be OK and I am very grateful for that.

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by butterflybabies, Jan 21, 2013
Sorry to hear you had such a hard post pardum depression. I know leaving the twins makes it feel worse. I cried everyday when I had to leave them. I went thru ppd to for a few weeks but mine was not as severe. I am glad to see William is going home and now you can start this new journey as a complete family! My boys had the drink, swallow breathe issue to when they went home. One of the nurses told me that they would one day just know how to do it without any pacing from me. Like a light switch goes off in their head. Anyway, I'm sure you will be very busy now with everyone home. Best advice is try to set a routine with the kids. Not a sleep schedule or anything but just a daily routine. It took me a few months to get on one but it made things slightly easier. I'm sure Anna will be a great helper! Is she liking being a big sis? Well give those kids kisses from us and I'm here if you need anything :)

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by Helen72, Jan 22, 2013
Anna is a great big sis, very enthusiastic about helping although she still finds baby crying very disturbing.  I hope she gets used to that soon.

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by krichar, Jan 22, 2013
I hope you're feeling better... Looks like both babes are home now :)

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