Mar 01, 2009
So I was pregnant and now I'm not... Again... It's getting really hard to deal with this now. Over three years of trying and over one year at IVF. I feel hopeless, like this is never going to happen. Why do I get pregnant then loose it...? It's funny to think that as the doctor said that either implanted in the wrong spot and had to go or that it ran out of energy and just stopped. I think it ran out of energy, with all my stupid clinical depression and all that goes with that, and even though I am trying to help myself and am getting better and better every week. It just seems unfair. I'm tired of everything. I just knew on Friday at the store that I shouldn't come to shop on saturday, but I had no choice I own it and my partner was away and the girl who works for us can't do a saturday on her own... So it stopped then and I knew it. All the symptoms magically stopped, and I just knew. I could write for ever about all my troubles, but I don't want to . I will pick myself up and move on, again. I am driving to Queensland for a week with my Hubby and that is going to be really really nice. I'll get to have a break and watch Foxtel! WE are going to camp on the way up to the GC and just take it easy.
It's always the way, what you want the most is the hardest to get. So I'll keep trying, I'm not broken yet.