Feb 06, 2013
Im so lucky to have my healthy cecilia. There is not a day where i dont realize that. She is my world and is such a sweetheart. I cant belueve how much she has grown since last year...
Today ive been thinking alot about loss. Not too much aboutt my own but just in general. My heart goes out to everyone who goes through a miscarriage,chemical,still birth, etc. its so unfair that so many of us have felt that pain. I can still feel my heart sink when i think of seeing the empty ultrasound or breaking down in the costco parking lot as i called my boss to tell her i couldnt come to work. Or walking out of the jospital after confrming the liss behind a lady leaving with her newborn thinking how terrible it is that we had to leave from the same place. I have more than dealt with my loss but all those moments are still real to me.
Ive been reading some posts on bbc and there have been so many miscarriages, its terrible to imagine what they are going through. We just had a lady find out her bsby has no skull or brain...
I know many on these boards have had a loss. Many with multiples. It is just hard talking about loss with people who have had only healthy pregnancies because they just look at you weird. I always find people this uncomfortable look at the ground until the convo channges. I dont talk about it often but it has come up in relation to a topic because its not a secret. It had a huge impact on my life and if anyone else experuences it i want them to know tgat rgey are not alone. Usually what i say is as extensive as i had an early pregnancy loss before cecilia.
I guess i am just saying my heart goes out to all the women who have gone through this and i think its really unfaur it happens to so many of us. Praying for good us results on Fridaty