Mar 04, 2009
How do you go on when all seems so lost. my ex put me in a mental hospital to break up with me cuz he didnt know how to do it any other way. He even saw here while i was in the hospital trying to pass a kidney stone on feb13 and then had the ******* balls to ask me if i minded if he went to the bar to practice pool on valentines day while i was still in the hospital.
Then when i got home on sunday he told me that i had to find a new place to live and i was so confused til he had me admitted into a psych ward then when they finally say i can get out he throws a hissy fit. I later found out that he lied to me and never had any intentions of ever letting me go back to his house he had packed my stuff the day i went in.
Then on friday i got released and he had to tell me the truth finally and that hurt so bad almost like it was just an every day thing now i am back at my parents where all the bull **** began and have no idea how to go on.
He tells me all the time that he wants to stay friends but each time i see him it breaks my heart that much more.
I have to go to the house because my niece or god daughter and brother still live there and he seems to get out of work before i xcan get out of the apartment.
My heart is breaking so much already he had someone lined up just waiting for me to go there and now my heart hurts so much i think i am going to die of a broken heart.Everytime i see him i just hurt so much more but i love my niece and refuse to let anyone come between me and my family
im sorry if i sound like a whine *** but this is the only place i know that i can express how i feel it seems so complicated and my heart feels so torn i just want to cry every minute of the day
THANX FOR LISTENING