Boss being shtty led to mini-breakdown, a sick day and a visit to my gp. He is really sensitve to my bp and pressed on me to take care of myself and remember that I am "fragile" even though I don't want to be. He is right. He gave me some suggestions and I'm working on them because I think they are good ideas, although not easy.
I am still sleepinig almost all the time I am not at work. doc is testing my thyroid levels. I honest sleep hard and I don't always feel that depressed. I'm hoping the thyroid test shows something because maybe that wil be easier to treat.
Today my boss is a btch again- we have a half-day at our school and everyone goes out to eat because we have an extra long lunch period. And.....NO ONE invited me to join them. Even my stinkin' boss snuck out with a group. (I caught her trying to slink away.)
I tell my therapist that I believe I am meant to be alone, and she tells me other clinets say the same thing. She belives it is insecurity or something, but I really believe it. If my old friend wasn't back in my life this past month I can't imagine how down and lonely life would be right now. He's borrowed my car and is picking me up from work today. Thank God I have another person and part of my life that is better than work.
I like my work with the kids, but I am starting to think that getting out of this catty back-biting, can't-trust-anyone workplace with a boss who is increasingly abusive may be the way I'm going to have to go fairly soon.
I've been thinking the opposite until the last couple of weeks. Thinking no change for a while would be best.
Next week is Spring break - maybe I can get something positive going on. Have three more hours to be here. Just gotta hang on, I guess.