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Mar 07, 2009 - 5 comments

As I sit here today, I look back and wonder how I got here and how I am going to get out.  Once blessed with good health, I now struggle everyday with symptoms of pain, fatigue, insomnia, immune system problems, anxiety and depression.  Family and friends try to understand, but some lose interest because as time goes on, things don't seem to change with this illness. People get bored with no change and people don't understand that you can't take a "magic pill" to get better...it simply doesn't work that way.
I lost my job, some friends, and now this illness is slowly robbing me of my relationship with my husband of 10 years. I cannot take anymore losses.  I try to tell myself to think positive and I will get better, but sometimes I break down because it's just too much for one person to deal with everyday. I somehow still manage to pull myself together and keep going.  I keep trying new treatments hoping something will help manage this illness which has many causes.  I am not asking for a cure, just a better quality of life. I try to think about one day at a time and not worry about tomorrow or next week because I just get too overwhelmed.
I am thankful for Medhelp and the people that I have had opportunities to connect with.  The knowledge and relationships I acquired from Medhelp is what continues to offer me hope and understanding.  Each day, I can be faced with a new dilemma, but know I have people to turn to that will put sincere thought into answering my concerns, so thank you.

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by sue14, Mar 07, 2009
Hi, sounds like you're really finding it difficult at the moment. the attitude of people is really upsetting sometimes - especially if you haven't felt well for some time - people don't know how to handle it and you certainly find out who your 'real' friends are. Sounds like you're just taking one day at a time at the moment.  Sending you a big hug.

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by greeneyes449, Mar 07, 2009
Hi, I am new to this web site. Is it fibomyalgia that you have? If it is , I truely understand what you mean. It took many years for me to feel validated. It's sad because if people don't have it then they truely don't understand what we go through. It's not their fault it's just the truth. That's why I thought I would look for a web site to discuss it with people who could truely relate. I live in Wa. state and I can't wait til the weather gets warmer, actually my body can't wait. I really hope that you feel better.

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by ginak, Mar 13, 2009
Ree,

I am praying for you. I am and have been exactly where you are. I too feel as if family members and so called "friends" have deserted me. I feel guilty for being sick and I miss my previous life. Somehow in the midst of the clouds, there will always be a ray of sunshine. Keep the faith and continue to run the race. We will not lie down to this illness or nothing else. You are a fighter and therefore when you get knocked down, don't stay down, always get back up.

Your friend,

ginak

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by PlateletGal, Mar 18, 2009
Ree4tu,

Keep your head up high ! The sun will be shining again soon... I think you are on the right path. It isn't a magic pill (wish it were) and it takes hard work and patience, but I think you will find healing soon.

Big hugs,

~PlateletGal


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by Ree4tu, Mar 18, 2009
Thank you everyone for your encouraging words. I will keep fighting through the ups and downs. I greatly appreciate all of you!

God Bless,

Ree4tu

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