Feb 25, 2013
I know I'm not old to some and I know I'm not young to some but I really do hate these medications with a passion. Yes, I know they are helping me achive a high purpose and getting better but **** damn ****! Sorry for that outburst but it hadto be done. My skin seems like it has deep pores all over, dry cough, mild itching, red bumps, small tanish leasions, lower back and hip & only my right knee seems to feel like someone is taking a baseball bat to them every hour. Really great breath sores in side my mouth and well the mouth is just screwed. I would rather detox off of smack then to ever do this. That's just how I feel. Every other week I want to quit but then I wise up and tell myself I only have 9 wks left. I know this could be much worse then it is but for me it is worse. I would never want someone to go through this pain. I can't even imagin how cancer patients do it. It's a will to fight and live just that much longer. Again I'm just venting. I want my normal silly goofy self back. I want me but a better me. I read these post about post tx and most of them sound like a horror film. I'm scared I won't lie. Not to mention that we are broke and are making rent by the very skin of our teeth. I don't know what to do. God doesn't seem to help then where do I seek to or who?