Mar 07, 2009
Today is sat. the 7th of March. I was a nice day today and actually yesterday also. It was actually dropping snow flakes for a short time today.I can't wait until spring and actually summer also. Any weather change really messeswith my body. In the winter time I am cold to the bone and my body hurts so incredibly bad! I pray that my children don't get the fibromyalgia. I think that my grandmother had it and back in the day they ( Dr's and family members) would just say that it was in her head . Thats how my mom would make me feel when I was first diagnosed. It took her years to come to grips that it was real. She use to do hair and some of her clients had it or had family members that did. It's sad that it took that. I knew the whole time yet everyone made me feel like **** about it. It was such a relief when I was finally validated.It was just such a relief. To know that everything that I was feeling was true, it truely wasn't just for no reason. My children have been my angels! I feel bad becuz I feel like they ha to grow up faster and help me quite a bit. I have been single for the majority of the time and now I am with an amazing guy who really loves me and helps me so much! I tried to go back to school to get my degree in Education. I wanted to be a social service worker in the schoo district yet due to my disabilities I had to stop. How discouraging!!!