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Outside I'm fine.... Inside I'm a wreck!

Mar 14, 2013 - 5 comments

People see me at work and say you look good to be going threw treatment. It not what is on the outside that's killing me. I wish I could wear a shirt that says Yes I may look fine on the outside. Back of the shirt says inside I feel like poop or a snow ball mush. I wish people at my work understood how I feel or anyone I know. I guess we never know how someone truly feels until it happens to you. I'm not looking for awe I'm so sorry for you. Just a simple keep it up your almost there. Now I really know how it feels and it ain't fun AT ALL! We all complain and we pick each other up with words that only we can say. I am proud of each and every last one of us out there that is doing treatment. We can fight this and no it's not fun but for those who are SVR it makes it all the better.

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by jpv1, Mar 14, 2013
Hang tuff girl your nearly there. Remember this will pass and then your healthy again be positive you rawk John

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by Reidmusic, Mar 14, 2013
Sometimes I feel like wearing a shirt that says "YOU DON'T KNOW HOW I FEEL!" I could put on my game face and people would think I was doing okay until they noticed my new skeletal physique, bald spots, bags under my eyes, and lizard skin. Of course I never went anywhere except to the hospital for labs and appts. so I was in similar company.

You're going to get through this, get your SVR badge, get married, have kids (if you want them), and have a great life. You're young and getting healthy and I'll bet treatment will change your perspective on life in a positive way.

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by islandsikora, Apr 26, 2013
Wow-Im just about to start treatment and your such an inspiration!! Even now, before Ive even started I feel like krap, so whats the difference, you know?? I know there IS a BIG difference, as my Mother did this treatment for 48 weeks (geno1) and it took everything out of her, and didnt work on her...Now, my turn...just turned 40, have a young 11 year old daughter, great man, gorgeous pitbull, and HepC...if I could only turn back time, if hindight were only 20/20...blah bah...like you said, gotta take what you get for past lives...it WA the past, and Im looking forward to a fabulous future, HEPC FREE!!! I must admit, im afraid...I hate being sick...STILL on Methadone after almost 6 years of cleanliness..(Congrats btw on your almost 10 years, very impressed)...I dont ever plan on relapsing, but who does??? Anyhow, sorry for the banter, just felt the need to say something as youve inspired me....Thanks

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by flcyclist, Apr 26, 2013
You're on the right path so don't let it waiver.  Do your best to keep a positive attitude and it will help you through.  Once you complete this trt, there's a good chance this will all be a distant memory.  Forget about the past.  You can't change what happened, but you can make changes and live for the future.  

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by Star971, Apr 26, 2013
Thank you! I wish you the best of luck with these meds. This is my last week and now that I look back it seemed like forever but I went by pretty fast. Now I get to have my make up birthday party.

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