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30 days opiate free

Mar 11, 2009 - 8 comments

First time in 7 years that I have gone this long...Sleep comes and goes, energy comes and goes.  Woke up today with all this weird uncomfortable energy..I do not know what to do with myself today.  I even went to the gym for the first time, that was funny, small steps..the old folks were kicking my *** around the track.  So that did not help this weird feeling, then I forget, no pills, usually I pop pills to make this go away.  Every thing seems amplified..cried again last night, over the beverly hills chiuaua..wtf?  Relearning how to just be, trying not to go to the the liqure store for vodka to make my mind stop. Weird feelings today.....BUT I AM 30 DAYS OPIATE FREE!

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by gizzy32, Mar 11, 2009
CONGRATS on 30 days, you should be so proud. I am sorry I do not know your story, but a month is huge and kudos to you. So many changes started to happen to me around this time, I was an emotional wreck and had feelings for the first time in awhile. Check up on PAWS in the health pages, they happen often around the first month clean. Your doing great.

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by HelpinUtah, Mar 11, 2009
CONGRATS on 30 days!  WOOHOO!!!!  I was also very emotional at this stage of my recovery from Lortab addiction.  I eventually went on an antidepressant to help.  I suppose many of us started abusing because of those very issues and feelings - just a thought.  Anyway, you're doing great!  Keep posting and stay around for the support and tempations that might come.  We're here for you!  Hugs, Janet

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by merrymaria, Mar 11, 2009
congrats on 30 days...thats great!...i did a ct from opiates on july 5, 08....about 28 days later i was on vacation in chicago and was so tired i couldn t walk anymore...i just had to sit.  i felt so weak and so empty...it was terrible.  couldn t sleep much at all...that was the worst part for me... but a few weeks later i felt pretty darn good.  we really put our bodies through some bad stuff when we use.  it just takes time.  just take it slow and relax...cheers to ya...maria

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by skoochie, Mar 11, 2009
sooooo....ug, I want to be happy about the opiate free thing, but the real problem is this learning to just be "me" ...whatever that is. yeah I know about "paws" I know I need after care...I JUST HATE CRYING IN FRONT OF PEOPLE!!!  and it's really ironic the things I have done in front of people totally sober..but God forbid I be "me". I went to NA, I spent the whole time holding back emotions, it was horrible..but it inspired me to go home and flush the rest of my methadone..cool..have not been back.  I REALLY believed that once I got through the withdrawals my problems would be over, and belive it or not I have been reading for over a year on this site reading everything people had to say about withdrawaling and how really it was after that it got hard.  Yeah, one thing to read and another to actually do it.  I won't even "post" because for some reason I'm totally frightend by the thought of really putting myself out there.  For some reason this journal thing keeps it comfortable. Oh, and another reason I'm not feeling so triumphant about 30 days, is that when the $hit hit the fan today, and for some reason I totally spaced it has been 30 days...I ran to the liqure store, even after writing here, talking to a friend, really trying to deal with myself and these weird feelings, having the best intentions...even worked out for the first time, then WHAM........autopilot takes over and before I know it, I have a cocktail in my hand.  Oh and boy do I feel better, but not really....what is that? Before the drink I felt like banging my head against the wall and running around in circles.  I have never felt what I felt today, though I have never been sober for any period of time, and let me tell you, no amount of working out or activity helped today.  So ya, 30 days opiate free, but not 30 days sober....something to think about.

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by mtgoat911, Mar 11, 2009
you can pick up a 30day chip!!! congrats

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by Jayne33, Aug 16, 2015
I'm on day 21 opiate free. Am finally sleeping here n there. After reading how exercise helps with the anxiety and everything I started riding my horse two days ago. Being outside on him with my barn friends really helped me mentally.

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by Jayne33, Aug 16, 2015
I'm on day 21 opiate free. Am finally sleeping here n there. After reading how exercise helps with the anxiety and everything I started riding my horse two days ago. Being outside on him with my barn friends really helped me mentally.  

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by Jerrym79, Apr 27, 2016
I had foot surgery 4 years ago. Since then ive been taking 750 vics, oc, morthphine. And every month id run out and feel like crap. So i quit cold turkey. Im on day 30. And it was very long road. Still having trouble sleeping and low energy. I have a very pshycial job. I have no choice but to workout all day. I install granate countertops so as u know that is not light. Anyways I couldn't have done this without the support of my wife. When will I feel normal again?

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