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Day before Easter (blessed to be clean)

Mar 30, 2013 - 7 comments

So happy and blessed to be clean this Easter!!! Had such a horrible nightmare yet again last night about taking pills.  Woke up so furious bc I thought I had really taken some pills and would have to start my countdown all over again. Lol. If anyone knows me by now they know I'm extremely impatient !!!  
I'm on day 17 and there is no flipping way I'm going back to day 1!!!!!   For what???? To feel guilty and bad about myself.  

The feeling of pride I get to say that I'm actualy clean.   Feels absoultly amazing!!!! Indescribable.  

Yes I still get anxiety and still am
Not at 100% w my energy.  But I'm doing what I can to stay active and busy.  And that helps me a lot.  

When I was on methadone I was like a cracked out superwoman.  Lol. I could run 10 miles after working all day long!!  I can't do that anymore.  And am learning to accept that.  Just working hard on eating clean to feel better about myself. I'm working out the best I can to get those endorphins pumping throughout my body.  

I'm Learning to redirect myself when I'm tempted by hubby's stash or get anxious.  And have been really challenging at times.  But with Gods help I'm getting through w out much of a scratch.  Only by Gods grace.  I give all the credit to Him.  

Just do grateful to have found so many amazing people on mh!!  Absolutely blows my mind    I never dreamed on jan 1st how this forum
Would help me through this fight!!  

God bless u my friends

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by clean_in_ks, Mar 30, 2013
God bless you, too!  This is my first Easter clean, too.  This morning I saw some itty bitty green buds on my favorite French Lilac NEW life is really happening.....!!  He shows us every day if we have the eyes to see, huh?

Your grateful attitude, your faith, your youth, your stamina, your ability to exericise, your KNOWING where your strength comes from........are some of your biggest blessings.

I've always LOVED Easter (Resurrection Day) more than any other time we, new, new and more new!

"The tomb is EMPTY so WE don't have to be"

In His most precious love,

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by VICourageous, Mar 30, 2013
Yes Oh Yes...This is my first Easter clean in so many years..I can not even remember....OH

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by toothfairie, Mar 30, 2013
My first Easter clean as well in years!  so blessed to have found this site and all the wonderful people here!  girl, you just keep doing what you are doing....maybe some of the exercise will rub off on me!  haha  xoxoxo

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by EvolverU, Mar 30, 2013
Ditto! A world of possibilities is open to all of us that simply didn't exist last year! Happy Easter & God Bless us, everyone!

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by SmilingBright, Mar 30, 2013
Aww Connie you just brought tears to my eyes!!   Beautiful.     So true.  He is risen!!!  Praise god for that!!!    

Love you ladies!!!!!!!  

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by jimi1822, Mar 30, 2013
Your MH Delta Force a force to be reckoned with by our adversary 17 nails in the demons Addiction/Dependency coffin kept hammering away and keep the demon in the coffin where it belongs. Your  an Inspiration to All of Us InDeed =0)


                                                                                                                Prayers and Blessings

                                                                                                                          jimi (lil wing =0)

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by SmilingBright, Mar 30, 2013
Awww Vic, Lisa, Annie and jimi. Thank you all.  

I think we are all a force to be reckoned with!! The devil can take a hike and leave this group of awesome people alone!!!  It's all over.

My hubby just paid me a nice compliment:: he said he likes the fight I have in me!!  

Dang right I have some fight.  Game on!!!  This addiction will no longer take precedence on my life any longer.   I will not feed the addiction any more.   Feels so good to say that!!!!!!

You guys are just amazing!!!  Hugs

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