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day 34 no methadone

Mar 15, 2009 - 0 comments

So I'm still hanging in there..found out everytime I work out and make myself sweat, I get a little of the withdrawal feelings..and DANG does my body hurt soo bad the next two days...started to lack on the water intake I think.  After I work out I do not get the energy I wanted, I find myself on the couch wiped out for the rest of the day.  Oy, it's going to take awhile to get back in shape!  Finally put down the vodka bottle too..after the opiates are gone it's like every little emotion is multiplied by 1000..after a couple of weeks of those I started drinking again.  I have to remember that I have to deal with myself without anything..and I'm finding I'm a hand full.  Upside down, inside out, and all around freaking nut case(sometimes it's pretty entertaining)..any of those quiting opiates, do you ever have those days where you just want to bang your head on the wall to make "it" go away?  Whatever "it" is, but no amount of vodka will make it go away I found, or working out....that's where you just have to take your day second by second because it does eventually go away(always to return) it's easier to think second by second sometimes, because it gets a little overwhelming when I think beyond that and when will I be over "it".

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