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Mar 22, 2009 - 1 comments

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well today is my first day clean from opiates in a while....subs to be exact bout 8 months....i tapered but it all ***** we all know that...so it looks like i am going to be on this thing on and off pretty much all day....so i made a post but then sitting too long didnt feel good so i took my daughter outside for a couple of min threw in a load of laundry and i am saving the dishes for my next intermission...i swear i keep sayin its not that bad but these sweats just suck so bad that it takes away any part of you that does feel okay...o well i dont even know how long sweats will last....no cravings at all so im happy...just letting it all out...gosh its not even the pain its just such an unbelievable feeling of uneasiness....cant wait to be me again....i missed her...my daughter is my strength even when she is throwing  a temper tantrum spoiled lil thing...her name is Valentina.....my babygirl.....

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by kim715, Mar 22, 2009
I've never been on subs.My doc was vicodin then methadone.I know exactly what you are saying about the uneasiness though.That feeling of having an anxiety monster in your stomach.Try and stay busy as busy as you can.Do some deep breathing from your diaphragm,in with the good out with the bad.It gets better,just hang in there and keep posting and reading.Your daughter is beautiful,grab her up and hug her tight.It's amazing how much strength we can draw from those little miracles.All the best....Kim

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