Mar 23, 2009
I thought I was doing good and everything would be alright when my husband got his tax return. We bought a pickup for him to drive to work, and bought me a car. They are paid for, so we don't have to worry about paying a car payment. We also paid to get the tags and register them and insure them. He bought the parts to fix a few odds and ends that was wrong with them (battery cables, air filters, oil, etc...the essentials for a used car). We also bought a load of groceries and diapers and such. Our bills were paid, so he decided to buy himself a laptop. I figured after his hard work, (he was pulling sometimes 60 and 70 hour weeks) he deserved a treat.
Now, a month later we are in a major bind. His company decided that they were on a hiring freeze and therefore they were also going to cut out all overtime. So, my husband's paycheck got neutered by nearly $300 a week. This is a big deal!! Now, we have a cut off notice on the light bill, due to be cut off tomorrow. I can only hope I can get them to extend it. The phone and internet got cut off the other day, but we paid it because I work from home and I can't work without the phone and internet. And, his dad isn't helping by shoving it in our faces about my husband getting the laptop!
We realize that we made a mistake. But, at the time my husband was getting lots of overtime and he was making good money. All of our bills were paid. I don't think it is right to jump my husband's *** because he decided to treat himself for once. He rarely buys himself anything. Now, it is too late to take the laptop back. And, I really don't want him to have to do that anyway. I am signing up for food stamps, although I hate doing that...we still need all the help we can get. I hate this stupid economic crisis.
I don't know what to do anymore, but I feel like curling up in a ball and crying. However, I need to take care of my family. I have to try my best to get an extension on the electricity. And, I need to be working harder than ever and pull in overtime at my job so that maybe at least I can look forward to a good paycheck next month. I wish sometimes that I got paid weekly. Well, at least I am getting better at my job. I am not so nervous when I make calls anymore. Well, at least my throat doesn't seize up when I try to actually speak on the phone. I'm getting better at it though.
Well, if I'm not around in a week or so, it is because our electricity got turned off. Wish us luck cause we are gonna need it!!