Mar 25, 2009
Hypo again last night... dancing and singing around in my underwear until 5am, amongst other things. Not good! Then as quickly as it came, it went and left me depressed. Now I have to start packing and getting my things together to fly home this weekend and I can barely move.
Don't even remember what else I was going to write down.
I think I'm actually getting worse; mood swings coming closer together and sometimes lasting longer, especially the mania; which feels great but from past experience its usually best to keep myself indoors. Also they dont seem to be in my regular pattern, much more random.
Three distinct moods/episodes yesterday... went from normal to depressed to hypomanic within a few hours. That hasn't happened in a good few months. Thought I was getting better, apparently I'm not.
Feel like yelling at the top of my voice. I hate this! Started to feel stable, started making plans which all seem so pointless now, I feel like I have no hope, no future. A 20 year old looking back on his life because he simply cannot look forwards.