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Apr 20, 2013 - 1 comments

To my darling grandad,

Set us all free. It was over a month ago that I was concerned that you were gonna leave us, you still haven't... I don't know what it is, that makes you fight on and on, but I hope you will eventually gather the strength to let go. The angels will take you soon, and you will be safe with them. Please darling, my father, my grandfather...  I love you so much, and I feel like I have never been so desperate to hug you, until now... that your almost gone. I am terrible to put this in the "You never know what something means to you until it's gone' category. But I hope you always knew, even if I didn't exactly show it as I grew older. I didn't understand that this is what would happen in the end. I never realised that you would suffer so much and for so long... I hope you will forgive me...
I am sorry for every time I got frustrated and yelled at you for forgetting things. It was never ever your fault. Such a kind soul, as yours, didn't deserve any of this. The pain, the confusion... Honey, don't be afraid to leave us, please. Don't fight no more, we can't bare it any longer seeing you like this....I love you so much, I don't know how I will cope without you. But I don't know how the family will cope if your suffering doesn't end soon. If I don't cry, please just know that that is the only way I may be able to cope with everything... And that it's not because I don't love you., because we all do.
I miss you so much already.  I miss you knocking on my door every 5 minutes just to say hi. Hello Grandad. :)
Your a beautiful person, I know you will be watching over us.
I beg you darling grandad, you have proved you are strong, I can't bear to hear the words 'He is dying' come out of my mouth, when people ask how you are. Please, you will always be in my heart, please just let go. It will hurt I know, but it's time.
Please...........set yourself free. But remember it's not Goodbye, because you will always be in our hearts.
Set us free honey.

Your Little Birdy loves you. xxxxx

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by mishymoshymarcy, Apr 20, 2013
I wrote this because I was told by my mother, that my grandfather 'may' not make it past the weekend, or past early next week. I pushed the topic away instead of going along with it, but I guess you could understand why. He is having trouble breathing, and won't eat, and his heartbeat is at most 40 something beats per minute.
There might also be a poem coming soon. :) Just a heads up. :)   :(   :)   :(   :)   :(

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