Nov 09, 2007
As much as I feel sad and disappointed and pissed off at myself for becoming addicted again after years of sobriety, I am VERY grateful for those years in which I built a good foundation through AA/NA, counselling, working the program and so on. All of those things are coming in useful now that I am finally on my way to quitting. I also know how much of my pill taking is plain old habit, as in routine, and I need to come up with ideas how to address cravings and how to change habits to make staying clean a long term proposition. Any suggestions very welcome, I would love to hear how others have reorganised their lives and habits in order to help themselves.
So, to start with, my triggers to use:
1. Waking up in the morning, pills and coffee ----> start having tea instead, or go out for a walk first thing in the morning
2. Hunger seems to feel much the same as a pill craving ---> regular meals
3. Coming home at the end of the day, usually hungry, take pills and surf the net for an hour to unwind - also coffee
4. Boredom - at college between lectures, at home studying, I do hours and hours of study, and the pills are like mini-rewards or something