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My Testimonial (or How I Was Saved by Jesus)

Apr 02, 2009 - 12 comments


I wrote this last year.  It provides a glimpse of the journey I have been on with Hep C and liver failure.  This testimony describes how I formed a new personal relationship with the Lord, Jesus Christ. I pray that reading this will also bless you and help strengthen your faith.  God bless all who read this.

I am a 54 year old male. I became "born again" back in my early years.  Now that phrase is tossed around a lot I know.  I actually was not truly saved at that point in time but I thought I was.  I had always felt like I had a mantle or an angel watching over me all my life.  I must have at some points in my life but now I think I did not deserve it.  I was not always a good person; I was a sinner just like everyone around me.  I did some terrible things, many I am too ashamed to mention to anyone but the Lord Jesus, for he knows everything.

I went into the US Army in 1972 to avoid the Vietnam draft.  It was during boot camp that the army gave me inoculation shots, which unbeknown to me; they had also given me the Hepatitis C virus.  This virus affected my health the rest of my life. It was attacking my liver and I did not even know it.  I found myself getting sick all the time. I was in the hospital during most of my training in the army.  For 35 years or more, I had no clue that HCV was in my system and the doctors did not know either.

Later after completing my tour of duty in Europe, I met and fell in love with my wife, Karen.  She had a 3 year old child from a previous marriage (Joey) and we added two more children to the clan (Sonia and Chad).  I began a career in computers and life went on.  I often missed work due to getting sick very easily but I still managed to advance my career and got some good breaks along the way.  I have never been much of a church person and very rarely stepped inside a church.  I prayed sometimes but it felt like I was just wasting time.  I never got a response and I resented that to some degree.  I was not a heavy drinker, but when I did drink it was the hard stuff. The devil had me in his clutches and I was living my life without any regard for my family and others.  I missed many important moments in kid’s lives.  Oh, how I regret that now.

Our daughter Sonia almost died in a bad automobile accident in 1998.  She was in ICU for over a month on life support.  We prayed very hard during this time and the Lord gave her back to us. I promised God I would change but I did not.  Actually, I might have gotten worse after that.  Once my daughter began to heal, she began to to write a journal and she indicated that while she was in the coma, she dreamed that they cut her open and pulled out twin babies, a boy and girl!  Of course we knew that was not the case, as she was in fact cut open to repair her lungs, liver and fractured hips.

Then, in September of 2003, the Lord gave me a huge wake up call.  During a routine physical exam the doctor discovered that my liver was swollen and hard.  She ordered some tests for every kind of blood disorder or disease.  The results came back positive for Hepatitis C virus.  Now I knew why I had always been so sick since I left the service. I went to the Liver Center at Baylor College of Medicine in Houston, Texas and began treatment for the virus.  They performed a biopsy of my liver and discovered that it was over 90% scarred.  The doctors told me I had very few years left and most likely would need a transplant to continue life.  My entire family has been tested several times over the last five years and they are negative for the virus.

I became very depressed and sick during the anti-viral treatment.  It was the most horrible stage in my life.  I wanted to kill myself and I had plenty of prescriptions to do it.  One night I was lying in bed ready to do it and I prayed to the Lord.  I asked Him to tell me what I had to live for.  I did not expect Him to answer because it was my thinking at the time I deserved what was happening to me.  The Lord Jesus Christ came to me in a vision and I was instantly bathed in calm and love.  I saw my savior standing before me; his robe shimmering with life, the fabric was alive.  Oh my, it warms my soul even today recalling this.  I could see the wounds in His wrists as he held the hands of two children, a boy on the left and a girl on the right.  The children were about 6 or 7 years old and both had brownish-blond hair and blue eyes.  He did not speak but I could sense his message.  The Lord spoke to me, these are your grandchildren.  You have so much to live for and much work to complete.  When the vision was over, I doubted what I had seen.  After all I was on all kinds of medications, it couldn't have been real.   Suddenly something came down upon my chest like a heavy weight and pounded my whole body up and down.  I melted back into the bed and felt such a feeling of warmth enter my body.  I was renewed and at total peace.  There was no doubt in my mind, it was real!

In 2005 the Lord blessed us with two beautiful grandchildren, twin boy and girl.  They have brownish blond hair and blue eyes.  They are the same children I saw in the vision I had years earlier!  Ok, now I knew that the Lord, my God, is real.  My faith was strengthened and I would now place all my earthly cares on Him.  Jesus was in my heart and I was ready to follow him forever.

This is a recent photo of my grandchildren at age 3.

The years passed by slowly as I continued one failed treatment after another.  The medicines were prolonging the inevitable and keeping me in misery.  I prayed all the time and asked Jesus each night to save me. In my heart I truly wanted to repent.  I cried so many times for a healing, for a miracle, for a liver.  The doctors finally put me on the transplant list in 2008 since my liver was starting to fail.  I got so sick that I had to go in the hospital every month for a week or two due to infections and water retention in my belly.  I spent more time in the hospital than out.  I was getting 7 to 9 liters of fluid pumped out of my stomach every three days toward the end.  Things were not looking to good for me.  There were so many on the list ahead of me.

One night in ICU my blood vessels started to bleed out internally.  My lungs filled with blood and the doctors said I almost didn't make it.  Several days later I had a vision or visit from my Lord and savior.  It was very real to me and lasted for hours. I cannot adequately describe the experience, except to say that heaven is real and alive.  Billions of angels are singing Glory Hallelujah every time a soul is saved.  The flowers and the trees are alive and singing.  The pathways are made of gold. The Lord showed me many things and I felt His love fill me to the depths of my soul.  I asked Him to forgive me for my sins.  He showed me the angels opening a book with my name on it and washing away the thousands of pages of sin with the blood of the lamb.  He told me I was going to get a liver and that I have a mission.  He told me time on earth is very short and that I should help Him prepare for the final battle against all evil. All I wanted to do was to stay there with Him, the love and warmth I was feeling was beyond any words.  I now know, beyond any doubt, that heaven is real and God is real.  Life is eternal and God is life.  God loves us so much.  He is with us always.

In late October 2008, I was in the hospital (St. Lukes Episcopal Hospital in Houston, Texas) due to a possible bacterial blood infection.  I was still on the transplant waiting list but that was on hold until they could confirm I had no bacterial infection in my blood.  One of the hospital doctors came to me and told me he had a powerful dream the night before about me.  This doctor and I had become friends over the last year.  He said the Lord came to him and told him that a patient was about to get a new liver in the next day or two.  He knew the Lord was referring to me.  That night I prayed to the Lord for his help and guidance.  The very next day, I found out around midnight that a friend at work was trying to get in contact with me.  One of my co-workers lost their 20 year old son in a car wreck earlier that day.  His body was on life support but his brain was severely damaged. I had worked with the mother for 17 years. The family wanted me to have the liver.  I was in grief over the matter and prayed asking Jesus to forgive me for accepting this wonderful gift.  The donor organ was a match and the final tests showed I did not have a bacterial infection after all.  The transplant operation was scheduled for the next morning and everything went well.  After five months now, there are no signs of rejection.  I am recovering and have returned to work full time with no restrictions.  I have resumed a normal lifestyle and I am thankful for each new day.  God is great!  Praise the Lord!

God Bless You

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by boldsojah4christ, Apr 03, 2009
Thanks 4 sharing ur testimony! I think it's awesome & courageus of you! Continue 2 let ur light shine here & wherever u maybe! There are a lot of good people here @ medhelp that have opened up my eyes 2 other beliefs! & share ideas & not argue with one another!!! God bless ((((BOLD))))

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by child24angel, Apr 03, 2009
Thank you for sharing your story and part of your life.

Can somone please tell me how can this great God take a child from his mother?

Many people , so many loving, caring loving people here were praying so very hard for Nick and he
didn't make it.  

Many times in my life my faith has been tested, many times I've went back to our Lord and Savior, time
and time again.  

Can you tell me...what was it my past sins? this child and many other children were taken way to soon
This does not make sense to me.

Nick did not want to die, he told me when he first went in the hospital,  I prayed so very hard for God to take
my life and let him live...I prayed so very hard for him ,

Now, I'm being told by some, he is in a better place, he is not suffering, I hope that to be true.

I've had this conversation with a very good friend.  And both of us....just don't understand.

I know this may not be what I wanted, that God has a master plan for all of us from the day of conception.

It is very hard to come to this God again , it is hard to understand.  
May-be my faith was not strong enough? may-be Nicks was not strong enough?

I have no answers.  I can't seem to make sense of this? and why there are so many people
suffering throughout the world.  

Take care

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by comeagain, Apr 03, 2009
Thx for your testamony it was real strong specially for me when you saw Jesus holding your grandchildrens hands and they were not born yet.

I believe that Jesus is God and that He is not created He is eternal just as Isiah says in Isa:9,6   For unto us a child is born.
And the goverment will be upon His shoulder.
And His name will be called Wonderful, Counselor,MightyGod,Everlasting Father Prince of Peace.

Dear Elaine how can we understand eternity try to just to remember God is good.
In fact Jesus has said only God is good.

I strongly believe Nick is in a better place .
Rest asure you will met him again and the Lord will wipe out all your tears!!


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by child24angel, Apr 03, 2009
I hope so dear friend and thank you

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by wguimb, Apr 03, 2009
Elaine, The mother of the boy who was my donor is feeling the same pain your are feeling. I see her every day at work. I can't pretend to know what you are going through. I don't have the answers you seek, only God does.  I can only say that God and Heaven are real.  The Lord loves you more than you will ever know while on this Earth.  

When the Lord came to me, as He has done several times, I have asked him how can He allow children to suffer and die, what will he do with the unbelievers and other religions which do not know Him.  I had many questions, but his only reply was that God has a plan for every single creature and that I was not concern myself with it.  Leave it all in His hands.

There are so many forces in this world, fighting God's angels constantly delaying or preventing Him from answering some prayers.  This battle has been going on since the beginning of time and will go on for until He returns.  Keep the faith, remain positive, enjoy every day that you are blessed with.  Take nothing for granted.

Why did he save me and show me these things, when others have been left to die?  I don't know, I am no more special than your son or you or anyone else on this Earth.  He loves us equally and with such passion that can not be described in terms we can truly understand.  Just trust in Him and all will be good in the long run.  God bless.  

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by child24angel, Apr 03, 2009
Thank you Wally, your input means a lot to me.

Please know, I do wish you well !! I'm very happy when someone's life is saved
It puts a smile on my face.  

Hugs to all

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by kimmypoo2, Apr 03, 2009


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by charm27, Apr 03, 2009
I was very very touched by this post of course beacuse of the loss of Nick and for all the children and people that have been lost along the way. I have askes SO many times myself-WHY?? WHY?? Why children. I have questioned my faith as well.
All I was told it wasnt for us to question Gods plan..however hearing our loved ones are in a better place does not help our pain
and our void for the ones we hold dearet to our heart. Yet our religion says that....go with gods plans.........................
Life is not fair in love and war and were not supppose to question or bother god to much. That is what I was told so many many times.
Its life I was told! Its life! Just keep praying.....No one knows about tomorrow if we get thru tomorrow its a gift.
All I can say is I wish I could change the world for everyone...I wish I could bring everyone back from the heavens so they can join us again at living.
Everyone of our hearts hurt, life can be a very unfair place--but as cold as it sounds- Thats life! I was told this from priests, rabbis, doctors everyone. And....we cant deny it is life. The pain still hurts and we who lost loved ones especially children ELAINE have endured a pain like no other. We all wish we could change it. and dam did we pray hard for NICK!
I wish I had the answers, and so does the rest of the world.
All we can do is live life today like it       w as our last and make the best of it. I imagine life is just for the moment we live............
I can go on and on ..I wish everyone on this forum well. People that we have lost are in peace now....and I wish I could bring everyone back.
Believe me I know the pain.......
However we must live, try to be happy and do the best we can in honor of our loved ones
They would DEFINITELY want all of us to be wering a smile!!

Love to all!

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by comeagain, Apr 04, 2009
True story!!

I met a guy in AA meeting twice maybe three times he was about 19 or 20 years of age he had become a Christian
also went to Bosnien with a christian group thats when it was war going on there.

Some months after Bosnien I´ve heard hes got a relaps just a short one someone told him he most do the fourth step more thoroughly, the day after or mayby it was the same day he got run over by a train and died immediately.

This guy was so good locking, looked like rockstar he had everything in favor and a whole promising life ahead of him.
I later came to know how hes mother was She was not old only around 40 maybe 30 something.
She was also going in meetings AA and NA.
In fact I had meet her before and more often then her son.

I had the big favor "grace" to be used of God to help this woman in her big grief.
Once I went to a church who is kind of speciall its a cafe for outcast in society aswell as a place for cermonies.
Well it happens to be a funeral cermony for this guy this particulary day which I had no idea about.
It was there I learned who his mother was.
I was down my knees in the church and got a sight a vision I saw this guy who had died  coming in a small both
and the boat landed in the most beautiful beach.

I told the mother this.
I think it can have helped her some.

I like to add its very rare I have visions.

Some months later I was about to go and listen to a very blessed christian musician it was free ,and I got  a strong thought that I was gonna pass this church I was talking about before on my way it was only a 10 minuts walk from where the musician should play.

Well there was guy there I know quite well and he said I can´t go with you because some women at my old working place have invited me for lunch.
I told the guy its not you I´m here for but you are gonna come aswell.

No no he replied not a chance.
When I had almos given up and started to think  this thoughts wasn´t from God I went to the restroom before I was about to go  to that music event all by my self.

When I camed out the restroom I runned into the Mother of the Son that probably commited suiside and I asked her if she liked to come and listen to this musician and she said why not.

So we went and of course the guy who said no no went too.

This mother byed records of the musician and joined a church shortly afterwards I don´t think she  believed in God before this.

The last thing I`ve heard about her she`s no longer in any church but that was 3 years ago.
I havn´t  seen or talked to her since that  music thing 7 years ago, only heard what others has said.
But I do think shes got a faith and thats whats most importent in my opinion.


PS The woman I´ve been talking about had at the time of this big tragic two more children age 5 and seven if i remember correctly but she had no man.

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by IAmTheWalrus, Apr 13, 2009
I just now read your testimonial. It is very touching to me as I have had similar feelings. These are hard to reconcile to the scientist in me, but the world is so wondrous that I believe any miracle possible.

I am so glad to hear you received a transplant. It changes your life. This gift can be an additional reason for living. I will pray you continue to do well with your new liver. You must be a very choice spirit. God bless you.


"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio,
Than are dreamt of in your philosophy" - Shakespeare (Hamlet)

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by DragonHater, Jul 24, 2010
I often wonder why I am here.......I think it was to have my son brought into the world, that God has big plans for him. He is a wonderful human being not may teenages like him, as for anything else i have no idea, I now have HCV just diagnosed, and i honestly still don't know my purpose. Your story is beautifully written and I wish you all the best. God Bless

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by tingletingle, Jul 14, 2011
Dear Wally,
The tears are streaming down my cheeks as I type this response after reading your testimony. The Lord only gives you as much as you can take and you must be one heck of  a guy to deal with everything. You're story is an inspiration. Thank you for sharing. The message lives on.

May the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you now and forever.


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