Apr 03, 2009
I had a stroke Oct 13,2008. I was 37 yrs old, healthy school bus driver who had a physical every year. The only time I was ever in a hospital was each time I gave birth, and I have 5 children.No complications giving birth. Never had high blood pressure.Until the day I had my stroke. I layed across the bed, going to take a nap before my afternoon route and the next thing I remember, was my head was pounding, ears ringing, room spinning, couldn't move my eyes, or neck, arms was numb, and I felt sick at my stomach. Was very disoriented, confused. Where we live is rural area, so I couldn't use my cell phone to call 911 cause I knew I would be transfered to a different county, and I had knowledge of this because I am also a 911 dispatcher, so my husband called my friend that I worked with and told her to get me a ambulance right away. He was in another state since he drives a truck, and I was so confused he could tell just by the sound of my voice something was wrong.By the time they arrived, I was weak, and my head was hurting terribly. But I walked to the ambulance. I couldn't stand to hear loud noises, and light certainly intensified my headache. Once I arrived to the hospital, they did a CT scan, discovered I had a bleed, and then I was stat flighted to a different hospital. But during this whole process, while at home, I was talking to God, and praying that he would not allow me to die at home, because I didn't want to leave this world knowing that my kids would come home and find me there. I just didn't want to leave that burden on them like that. That was my only fear through it all, was leaving my kids behind to find me lying on the floor. I was in intensive care for a week, and then a regular room for several days, and finally came home, to have to be taken back to hospital, since I couldn't hold any food down. They thought I was having another bleed due to straining while vomiting, luckily I didn't have another bleed, but they ran every test on me they could, and couldn't determine why I had a stroke.So now here I am, I lost my school bus job, and trying to get my life back together. Its so hard, because I want to be normal again. I'm on anti depressants for pain, and depression and they don't seem to be working, all I want to do is sleep. I can't get enough sleep. I need to be a mom to my kids, but I can't due to sleeping all the time. I'm so tired of taking all these different medicines that don't seem to help any length of time. They help for a few weeks, then the headaches are back, and I'm sleeping all day again. I have short term memory really bad, alot of duh moments. No physical disabilites. My hearing is still amplified and my sense of smell is definetly working better than it ever did. I'm very fortunate I know, however I just want my life back.