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Subarachnoid Hemorrhagic Stroke

Apr 03, 2009 - 3 comments
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I had a stroke Oct 13,2008. I was 37 yrs old, healthy school bus driver who had a physical every year. The only time I was ever in a hospital was each time I gave birth, and I have 5 children.No complications giving birth. Never had high blood pressure.Until the day I had my stroke. I layed across the bed, going to take a nap before my afternoon route and the next thing I remember, was my head was pounding, ears ringing, room spinning, couldn't move my eyes, or neck, arms was numb, and I felt sick at my stomach. Was very disoriented, confused. Where we live is rural area, so I couldn't use my cell phone to call 911 cause I knew I would be transfered to a different county, and I had knowledge of this because I am also a 911 dispatcher, so my husband called my friend that I worked with and told her to get me a ambulance right away. He was in another state since he drives a truck, and I was so confused he could tell just by the sound of my voice something was wrong.By the time they arrived, I was weak, and my head was hurting terribly. But I walked to the ambulance. I couldn't stand to hear loud noises, and light certainly intensified my headache. Once I arrived to the hospital, they did a CT scan, discovered I had a bleed, and then I was stat flighted to a different hospital. But during this whole process, while at home, I was talking to God, and praying that he would not allow me to die at home, because I didn't want to leave this world knowing that my kids would come home and find me there. I just didn't want to leave that burden on them like that. That was my only fear through it all, was leaving my kids behind to find me lying on the floor. I was in intensive care for a week, and then a regular room for several days, and finally came home, to have to be taken back to hospital, since I couldn't hold any food down. They thought I was having another bleed due to straining while vomiting, luckily I didn't have another bleed, but they ran every test on me they could, and couldn't determine why I had a stroke.So now here I am, I lost my school bus job, and trying to get my life back together. Its so hard, because I want to be normal again. I'm on anti depressants for pain, and depression and they don't seem to be working, all I want to do is sleep. I can't get enough sleep. I need to be a mom to my kids, but I can't due to sleeping all the time. I'm so tired of taking all these different medicines that don't seem to help any length of time. They help for a few weeks, then the headaches are back, and I'm sleeping all day again. I have short term memory really bad, alot of duh moments. No physical disabilites. My hearing is still amplified and my sense of smell is definetly working better than it ever did. I'm very fortunate I know, however I just want my life back.

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by Annetteski, Apr 09, 2009
I had a stroke at 38 nov 3rd. I was at the doctors for being sick. They said my bP was a little high but didn't give me anything.  I went to bed that night woke up next morining couldn't see. I stroked out in my sleep. Now I blame the doctor. It's been 5 months and my vision never csme back in my right eye. I'm so upset I sleep alot too.   feel  so bad for my son cause I'm not the same anymore. But I don't know how to move past this. So depressed. I can't even go back to work cause of the vsion. You can relate I feel so Alone

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by Annetteski, Apr 09, 2009
THis is annetteski again I know how you feel I need to be a mother to my son But am not doing a good job of it right now I would like to talk to someone like you who understands. Because people don't understand why I just can't be strong pick up the pieces and go on with my life if you need a freind we can talk 734-329-2914.

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by 911ldyRenee, Apr 17, 2009
Dear Annetteski,

I know exactly what your going through.I'm on my 4th medication, and it wasn't working either, and of course after the stroke they thought I was just depressed, and in a sense of course I was, considering what I had just went through. However I went to the dr again on April 9, and my blood tests results just came in yesterday and they said my thyroid level was extremely high your thyroid can cause all kinds of things to go wrong...so starting tomorrow morning, I have medication for that, so I'm really excited to see how much better I get to feeling. I haven't been able to loose weight no matter what I do, and now I finally know why, and whats going on I hope. Where do you live? How old is your son?  I will certainly keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Maybe you can consider what I did, get your blood tested, they might find the solution. However you have to be agressive with the doctors, don't give up, make them do their job. I have done alot of research, and its helped me understand things alot more, cause the doctors don't take time to explain alot of things, when I researched the  thyroid, I was amazed at all the symptoms, and it can be hereditary, so I'm taking my kids to be tested as well....I want to be ahead on their behalf, would never want anyone to have to experience what I have been through.I have the greatest kids and husband, they are all really doing the best they can considering the circumstances, and without them, I would have already given up, but they are certainly my inspiration, and the love you have for your son will allow you to be strong too. Sorry it took so long to respond, but I don't get on computer alot, since we all share one computer....its my time late of course.

Well take care and I'll talk to you soon.

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