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May 12, 2013 - 2 comments

For the past few days I have been suffering from what I can only call a crisis of the soul. I feel so stuck and stagnant in my life. I feel "trapped" in this truck, in  my relationship, everything really. I know that I am probably suffering from some depression, and that my situation ( being in a semi truck all the time) is not helping matters. It is so hard to be in such close quarters with another human being day in and day out. It is so hard being stuck with only my thoughts for hours on in daily. I look to this forum for the support and encouragement that I am unable to get from anyone else in my life. I am so thankful to have found this site and all of the wonderful people on it. I guess that I have a lot of soul searching to do. It really helps to just voice these thoughts that have been troubling me.

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by EvolverU, May 12, 2013
Thanks so much for sharing this A., I'm in a very similar position - being 'stuck' that is. I can't imagine what it would be like to be in the cab of a semi all day! I just want you to know that I'm in a similar position and that if you'd like to talk I'd like it, too. I've started to take steps to get 'unstuck' but I know it'll be hard, hard, hard. (I hate hurting people..) Until I took these preliminary steps, I was generally depressed day after day because I realized I wasn't moving. The further I get into my clean time, though, the more I've come to know that  I've got to do what's healthy for me, for once. There's just too much at stake! How do you feel? Any ideas..

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by ariley13, May 12, 2013
I totally agree. I think that I am realizing how unsatisfied I am with everything and need to figure out how to make a change. It's so easy to get comfortable in a situation and stay in it even if you aren't happy. I am at the point though where I don't want to waste any more precious time. It's just really hard to be selfish and do what's right for yourself. I'm too much of a people pleaser I guess.

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