May 25, 2013
I'm not handling things very well after my drs appointment yesterday. He hit me with reality.
For many years, while my number one priority was to get high, I ignored the symptoms I was having with my health. If I didn't think about it it would go away.
Now that I have been sober and could actually start feeling again I noticed my symptoms getting worst.
Long story short. I had a laparoscopy surgery (a girl thing). The dr found massive scar tissue and adhesions all throughout my girly parts. Diagnosed me with severe endometriosis. Ranked me n the rare percentile of women who have this type of endo. Which is 15% of women in america. He also said its very rare for someone like my age to have it thus bad.
Yesterday I was officially given 3 options. I don't want to pick any one of them for I don't like the outcome of them. Each outcome is no kids. Which my chances for having kids is very slim right now.
I'm scarred BC I have to make a big life desicion.
The battle I've been fighting is I can't accept any of this. I do have to make a choice soon b4 it progresses further and leads to more serious conditions.
I share this story in hopes of helping someone who is in the mix of their addiction that each day use u r destroying ur body and possibly taken off years of ur life. Plz think about that.