Jun 20, 2013
Another week, another lie. So just like a few days ago I literally broke up with him because he lied. Yes he lied again and he said that he wasn't going to go out. We had both agreed to this rule. And trust me I like to party too so I go out alot with my mates aswell. But after all the crap we have gone through because of his lying and cheating ways we had both agreed to certain rules at times and I had my finals and I didnt wanna be upset or worried. so we spoke on the phone nd I asked him if he was going anywhere and he replied "No waaayyyy" and he even said it the way Its typed. Btw we have been going out for 3 years we broke up for a couple of months but I took him back and when I did he cheated on me with a friend of mine. But I took him back again. and evee since then I hoped things would change but its always the same ******* case. He lives a couple of hours away from me because of work and I'm at Uni. So basically after I broke up with him again a couple of days ago I told myself that this was it! for real i wasnt gonna look back i was ready. he begged for me back saying he wouldn't lie again. I said he would and i said its only a matter of time give it a day or two or even a week he said No it wasnt. He said he wasnt gonna drink anymore. anyways we gt back together. And he a day later he gt drunk. a week later he lied again about what he was doing. His just an impulsive liar I dnt understand him. Whyy! if he just says Babe Im going out having a few or whatver I would be ok with it. Anyways thats that. Im tellin myself I really wanna move on but I know this is gonna be hard. I really see something in him and I feel like his gonna change. I dnt know what to do. I wanna break up with him but my heart hurts just to think of it. Why is my life so hurt. Iv cried so many times for this guy so much! its crazy. anyone in their righy sense wouldn't do this. But here I am. And truth is 3 years ago I was never this weak. Never. I've let this guy take a hold of my emotions I need this to end. I've even thought about ending my life because of this and I have other things to deal with in my life aswell. Family and school. and this keeps on happening to me. I love this guy so much. I'm gonna think about this. First I need to sleep.