Apr 02, 2008
Well af showed her ugly face 5 days late... got my hopes up. Im just really down in the dumps right now, its been 3 months since my mc and it seems like EVERYONE around me is preggo. Last week three months to the day my manager is glowing running around telling everyone how she is 7 weeks preg with her 3rd child. Im so happy for her, I really am but it just had already been a bad day for me and then EVERYONE I work with wouldnt stop talking about her being preggo. I had to go in the bathroom and cry... then get confronted later about why i was avoiding her all morning. Im just starting to lose my mind im sick of living my life in two week intervals, im sick of being sad, im sick of not drinking taking meds when i dont feel good every moth for nothing. Most of all im sick of taking prenatle vit that make me feel sick for no reason. Im sorry... theres no point to this journal im just so bummed out right now. I told dh the other day that if it doesnt happen in the next 3 months i want back on my bc i want these headachs i get without it gone and i want to stop this emotional rollercoaster i have been on since we got preg in nov. I want a family so badly and so does he but this is killing me.