My physical health has been on the decline. My fibromyalgia has flared and I'm in pain, I can't think straight, my memory is horrible (yay, fibrofog!) and I forget stupid things like when I go to get something, I forget what I went to get. I'm prescribed both Adderall IR 4 times a day and dextroamphetamine ER max 6 tablets a day, I'm able to control how I distribute the doses but cannot take more than 2 per dose every 4 hours. That's to help with my fibrofog and also my ADHD, though even taking 2 medication hardly puts a dent in either. I still have to use timers for everything or time disappears, such as when I shower and get ready in the morning, I have to set a visual timer to keep myself on track of I'll take 3 to 3½ hours to get ready.
My dysautonomia is not under control in any way right now. Going through the symptoms list on the tracker I grimace and think "yep, yep, yep, yep again, oh one I can remove, yep…" and it's been like that for 15 years. I'm only 27 and already 15 years.
I can't get a doctor to take my fibromyalgia diagnosis seriously despite still meeting the criteria, HHV-6 has been thought to be the cause/trigger, I still meet all diagnostic criteria including tender points (I meet 18/18) and I was diagnosed by a pediatric rheumatologist at Duke University Medical Center after almost 3 years of not knowing anything. I'm just told to go for walks and take 800mg ibuprofen. Ibuprofen at that dose rips my stomach up, causes mouth ulcers, kills my appetite, and isn't effective anyway. I'm tired of being blown off.
Finally, my Essure procedure was unsuccessful. Only the coil in my right fallopian tube was able to be placed, on the left, it wasn't able to be placed at all the first appointment, the second time, it was misplaced. They tried to remove it and left I think 5-6 coils remaining. I'm having horrible stabbing pelvic pain and I need to get a second opinion and have a tubal ligation or SOMETHING done to fix this. I feel violated in a way. I'm scared I'll be told nothing can be done.
I just took my Adderall and dextroamphetamine about 10mins ago, I'm getting sleepy now from it, I'm going to take a nap.
I can't stop freaking out about everything.
Anxiety Disorder NOS (Agoraphobia, GAD, OCD, etc.)