Apr 19, 2009
Hello everyone. I have missed everyone so much. I was not away of how much everyone meant to me. I have a rather long story to tell but if anyone was wondweing about me this should answers alot of questions.
To avoid alot of repeation and getting too tired I think I will just kist things as I remembered them, Keep in mind there are several things even the doctor are not sure of, I also tend to get emotional i I talk about some things in too much detail. hings just seemed too overwhelming to acknowlegde. Here goes and please say prayers for my physical and mental well being. 1. I found out I am HIV positive. (Had a needle stick at work) I had already did the Hep C tx which was not effective.2. I had some type of mental/physical colaspe about 5 weeks ago. I was hallucination about bugs crawling all over me. I do not drink or do drugs so knew it was not withdrawal.. 3. I was admitted to the hospital, where I underwent every test possible. I had encephalitis, the shingles on my left lower leg, and on my brain.
4. I eventually came out of the worse part but continue ot be weak and tired. I was in Hospital x 3 weeks, the was placed in rehab to help with some weakness and redisual loss of lower left leg usage. I am currently usin a 4 wheeled walker which isn'y to bad. However when I can'' t move it voluntarily I get really scared ot won't improve.5. I continue to have some thought process alterations which cause me to be slow and sometimes confused.6. My labs from my hiv test indicate I am only 2 points from being considered aids not just HIV positive So..natually you can imagine how that news affected me. 7. I foundout after I came home that my hubby and daughter inlaw were planning my furneral as th doctors had told them I could go either way.
8. I remember nothing and am trying to piece together what people tell me. The worse part is my feeling of time lost that I can never get back, It is like something is missing.
I know God is with me and will not give me more then I can handle. Again, pleas keep me in your prayers. Hope to hear soo. Julia
I try to be positive and know that God will not give me more then I can handle.