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I really don't know what to do.

Aug 23, 2013 - 2 comments
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Don't know what to do



From self-observation (I spend so much time on my own!) I have reached a sticky point.  I understand that I tend blow problems out of proportion, and following a break up from my partner of 16 years, I'm absolutely tormented with intrusive negative thoughts and feelings. It was made more real today, after I received a message from 'him'.  I may calm down as I understand that my emotional can be very up and down.  My question is.......or my thoughts are - At what point to I ask for official help?  I've been thinking/planning/day-dreaming about death.  I'm not well physically due to 'self-neglect' and just unhealthy behaviors, especially alcohol.  I have two friends in this world; and no partner.  I get social anxiety, but at the moment I'm wanting to escape.  I doubt if this makes any sense - 'I want to go far away somewhere in the world, on my own and die'  I am laughing now at this, cos' I'm not a cat!
I really have no idea if I need to obtain official help right now.  I say this because I'm all needy and emotional and over the top.  In a few days time I expect I'll be in a totally different state of mind.
I don't want to waste peoples time.
What to do.....?!?
Beanie0  

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by lboogie7729, Aug 23, 2013
If you're thinking/planning and day dreaming about death it would be a very good idea to seek help. Even if your mood changes or improves, don't consider it a waste of anyone's time. An accidental overdose while I was drunk (my ex encouraged me to OD in the middle of a fight) almost killed me years ago in Nov and I still struggle with memory damage. I'm incredibly lucky to be alive, but I still struggle with a lot of issues. I have really good days, ok days, and absolutely wretched, agonizing, exhausting, lonely days where I struggle to see any light at the end of the tunnel. I see a therapist weekly at the college I received my Bachelor degree from. I always recommend that people seek out Community Psychological services because they usually often offer a sliding scale and insurance is a big issue for a lot of people. Plus I think they tend to have more flexibility and options than a therapist in private practice.
I don't want anyone to go through what I have went through and that's why I speak up. I cannot save anyone, I can only do my best to save myself. I can offer advice, support and knowledge derived from my own personal experience though. I understand what you are saying, and I think you, like me, would greatly benefit from enlisting the help of a professional. It couldn't hurt, right?

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by hopefulforfuture, Oct 17, 2013
Beanie dear :)  

Realise that with your circumstance at this moment  it would be better to get professional help  ... With the recent events in ur life realise that like most people it is quite challenging .  And even "wasting somebodys time " etc is a negative thought ,  also "going some faraway place "  ....

See my message also .... in inbox .
Professionals do have a role and use it . Of course in a supportive role i will be there to my best possible way

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