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Sep 01, 2013 - 0 comments



Anxious and Scared




my baby girl

Well, I'm starting this journal thing kind of late. I'm due in 9 days, but I guess these last few days I'll have somewhere to put my thoughts.  I'M OVER IT!!! LOL I'm so ready for my daughter to be born. The anxiety is killing me slowly.  I'm dying to meet her and have my body back at the same time.  I hope that doesn't sound like I'm a mean mom.  I want her out just to have my body back.. ANYWAY, I'm nervous as heck. I don't know what to expect.  I'm anticipating my water breaking and don't have the slightest clue what it will feel like or where it will happen, if it does.  I kind of hope I just start having pain and they break my water in the hospital.  I feel like that'll be less surprising and so much cleaner.  Lol.  Anyway, I've just been feeling really anti-social.  I don't want to sit and chat on the phone with friends.  Everyone keeps asking me "Is she here yet?"  I'm like, "NO!!!"  I wish they'd stop asking me.  Obviously, there will be some kind of announcement when she gets here, so why do people feel as though they have to ask everyday.  Ugh, just adding to my stress and frustration about the fact that she's NOT here yet. (I sound mean, oh gosh).  Well, I guess as the day progresses we will see how I feel. I could barely sleep last night.  I was like an acrobat trying to find a new position to get comfortable in.  My baby doesn't like my left side.  That only leaves one side to sleep on, which is the side that my hip is always burning.  I'm a stomach sleeper.  Ugh, this *****.  I can't wait for her to get here.  Can't wait for this pregnancy journey to be over.  It was a tedious one, can't say it was all bad, but it wasn't all good either.  I'll just be glad when she gets here.  

Well until next entry people....

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