This has just been a crazy, stressful, lonely couple of weeks. My mother has been not feeling well for MONTHS, her dr did not do any of the routine testing or exams until after SIX months of extreme symptoms. By the time she was finally taken serious....STAGE 4 CANCER, that has spread everywhere. The surgeon & oncologist have given her 60 days or less without chemo & not sure where we'll be with chemo, could be better, could be worse. I contacted the Red Cross & Trevor was brought home from Germany on Saturday, he was given a 30 day emergency leave since this may be his last visit with his grandma. All I can think about is that my lil boy will never know or remember his grandma, he's only 4.5 months & it's just unfair. Seeing her in pain & struggling, having to take care of all of her basic needs is just so overwhelming. Obviously I'm going to do whatever she needs but it is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I just feel empty.
Really want a baby!!!!!