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May 10, 2009 - 0 comments
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I dunno what to do...  Ive got no credit on my phone so I cant text back this guy. he wants to go cinema. and I kinda said I would... But I cant text him back to arrange when to meet or anything... I want to go but I dont want to go... It wont go well. The only reason We were how we were last week is cos we were drunk. and when Im drunk I dont think about things as much I dont care. I just go with it. Thats the only reason it went so well.... but now. now we're just going to the cinema. And he will want to kiss and stuff. and I dont think I can today. I feel too on edge. I feel to fat, ugly etc. I just cant today. I want to. but I cant. I dont want to. If it goes wrong or I think its gone wrong then I will get home be all upset and eat and eat and eat. and I dont want to. Not today. I dont know what to do. I dont think I can cancel on him again. But if I go out today in this mood then I will just ruin any chance and embarras myself of something. I will just have to cancel.... I Feel like ****. =(

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