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Because she loved me

May 10, 2009 - 6 comments

My mom passed away sixteen years ago from breast cancer,I was 24 at the time.I can remember being so angry at the world,angry at God,even angry at her for leaving me.I wasn't ready to lose her,none of us were.I felt as if I still had so much that I needed her here for,so much more that she needed to teach me about how to be a woman,a mother,a wife.Looking back now my mother had begun instilling those values in me from the time I took my first breath.She had been preparing me for those roles since day one.She had already given me the tools I needed to succeed in this world.Now it was up to me to put them to use.I had a lot of set backs,fell flat on my face plenty of times.Not just with my addiction,but many times.It was at those times when I thought if I still had my mother here with me those things wouldn't have happened.Truth is,they most likely still would have happened but had my mother not raised a stubborn head strong daughter,I may not have been able to pick myself back up.Even as a small child when I would fall down my mother would say to me get back up,shake it off,you're going to be okay.She taught me that no matter what life throws me,even when I make bad decisions that eventually knock me on my behind.I have the strength and the wisdom instilled in me to get back up,shake it off,because I'm going to be okay.I am my mothers daughter and I am everything I am because she loved me.Happy Mothers Day mom.I love and miss you so very much....


I played this song at my wedding in memory of my mom.

Because You Loved Me lyrics
Songwriters: Warren, Diane;

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right

For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful, baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me, ooh, baby

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach

You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love, I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me

Maybe, I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because
I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me, the tender wind that carried me
The light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me

Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

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by dominosarah, May 10, 2009
Oh my friend.......I know how much you love your mom and i know how days like this hurt.  Today she is sitting at the head table in Heaven celebrating her life and looking down at her daughter and smiling and she is so proud of you.  You have overcome so many obstacles becuz of what your mom taught you.  You got her strength and her stubborness and have become such a wonderful person.  I feel like i know your mother as you are her.  Today celebrate her life and yours, Let the tears fall and then dry your eyes and look to the heavens and thank her and tell her you love her and that you are doing good.  Enjoy your family today and look at your own children and you will see you and your mom in them.  You are such a special person to me and today i wish you the best Mothers Day filled with love and reflections of everything that is near and dear to you~~~~~~~~~~I love ya girl............sara

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by jimi1822, Jun 13, 2009
Kim,

      This is really so Beautiful =0) I'm sure Your Mother is still with You and Guiding You every step of the way. I'm soooo
      glad I came upon this most wonderful post tonight.I will keep her in My evening Prayers before bed tonight and light
      a candle of special intent with a gift of Charity for the those in need at Church tomorrow.


                                                                                                 much Love, much Compassion, much light....

                                                                                                                                               <3 jimi (little wing =0)


                                                                                            

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by doctora, Dec 02, 2009
I lost my mother to breast cancer about 10yrs ago, and we were best friends. It seems like it happened only yesterday. I will never love as much as I loved her, and I pray that somewhere up in that blue sky, she is watching over me, and waiting for me.

I can relate.

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by Julie359, Dec 03, 2009
Ohh trust me on this your mum is right by your side, watching and guilding you, she is there through thick and thin.  When you feel that surge of strength that gets you through another day, it is your mum.  when you feel a warmth come over you it is your mum and when you feel that leap of joy in your heart it is your mum....... No matter what she is always with you keeping you safe cause you'll always be her little girl and she'll always love you.

This song i've just played on youtube by Celine Dion and it's soooo utterly beauitful... it made me cry cause i too lost my mum to Schizophrenia whn i was 5years old.  I never got to have any precious memories of her so for that ur truely blssed.

take care xxx

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by chelle_1, Dec 03, 2009
wow, your both inspiringme, I am always complaining about my mom,  but i quess noone loves you like your mom,  bless you Julie and doctora.     love Chelle

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by doctora, Dec 03, 2009
Aw geez you all have me weapy. I think there is a special bond between mothers and daughter - when the daughters get older. I was never close to my father.

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