Sep 23, 2013
Well it's 12:00 in the morning here and I am wide awake. My husband woke me up moaning and yelling. Man I have never heard him do that. Now I'm out in the den with my sweetie Billy(dog). I'm having those crazy thoughts in my head. I've got butterflies in my stomach. This is my mind telling me "i can use one more time". I hate it when this happens!!!! So I got up on my laptop. Today was an okay day. I was manic again. I cleaned everything that I cleaned yesterday. The tips of my thumb and two fingers hurt so bad. They are raw! I see the doctor in the morning so I need to get something adjusted. Bipolar is almost as hard to deal with as addiction. Well I'm going to TRY and get some more sleep.