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Song to Say Goodbye

Sep 29, 2013 - 8 comments

How could you? How could you lie to me over and over again? How could you risk your job when you have your children, your kitties, and me depending on you? How could you blame me for all of your shortcomings? Why do you feel it necessary to repeatedly deceive me? How could you put that poison in your body and force me to be terrified for 2 days straight that you are going to kill me or yourself? How could you hold me down repeatedly and beat me? How could you blow all of our money and leave us with nothing to live on for the next 2 weeks. How can you tell me this is what I deserve? I can no longer believe a word you say. Any trust that I once had has gone out of the window after the past couple of days. I am heart broken and in tears. I dealt with this growing up with my addict.alcoholic father and in my marriage with my ex and his benzo addiction. I cannot and will not do this again. My body and heart are broken tonight, but I am sober and dealing with it. You can't and won't take that away from me. Here is a song for you, you mean, heartless SOB.

'Song to Say Goodbye'  by Placebo

You are one of God's mistakes
You crying, tragic waste of skin
I'm well aware of how it aches
And you still won't let me in

Now, I'm breaking down your door
To try and save your swollen face
Though I don't like you anymore
You lying, trying waste of space

Before our innocence was lost
You were always one of those
Blessed with lucky 7's
And the voice that made me cry
My, oh, my

You were mother nature's son
Someone to whom I could relate
Your needle and your damage done
Remains a sordid twist of fate

Now, I'm trying to wake you up
To pull you from the liquid sky
'Cause if I don't we'll both end up
With just your song to say goodbye

My, oh, my
A song to say goodbye
A song to say goodbye
A song to say goodbye

Before our innocence was lost
You were always one of those
Blessed with lucky 7's
And a voice that made me cry

It's a song to say goodbye
It's a song to say goodbye
It's a song to say goodbye
....




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by clean_in_ks, Sep 29, 2013
Holding you close, Ang.....loving you and praying for you~

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by toothfairie, Sep 29, 2013
I'm so sorry Ang!!  you know i'm here when you need me.

Hugs!

love ya girl


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by Heather8448, Sep 30, 2013
I LOVE YOU ANG!!!
MY SONG TO YOU!!!

You've Got A Friend"

When you're down and troubled and you need a helping hand
and nothing, whoa, nothing is going right.
Close your eyes and think of me and soon I will be there
to brighten up even your darkest nights.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend.

If the sky above you should turn dark and full of clouds
and that old north wind should begin to blow,
keep your head together and call my name out loud.
Soon I will be knocking upon your door.
You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call and I'll be there.

Hey, ain't it good to know that you've got a friend? People can be so cold.
They'll hurt you and desert you. Well, they'll take your soul if you let them,
oh yeah, but don't you let them.

You just call out my name, and you know where ever I am
I'll come running to see you again.
Winter, spring, summer, or fall, all you have to do is call, Lord, I'll be there, yeah, yeah,
you've got a friend. You've got a friend.
Ain't it good to know you've got a friend. Ain't it good to know you've got a friend.
Oh, yeah, yeah, you've got a friend.


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by brokenheart605, Sep 30, 2013
my thoughts are with you ang xxx

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by FourJays, Sep 30, 2013
Oh Angie, I am so sorry.  You DO NOT deserve this in any way, shape or form.  Sending prayers your way.

Love you,
Julie

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by EvolverU, Oct 01, 2013
NO ONE deserves this. (Least of all you.) You know how I feel & there is a Plan B in place. No more of this, Angie. I love you. I'm Here.

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by EvolverU, Oct 01, 2013
(Good Placebo song, btw.)

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by katmandu516, Oct 23, 2013
Great posting to saying goodbye to the poison we put in out bodies. That wreck our lives....
But we will survive this to see another better day. I hate those pills now.

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