May 15, 2009
My hair loss from treatment has been about 80% and I've lost my eyelashes and eyebrows too. (I'll take shot No. 37 tonight - out of 48). I had thyroid issues early in treatment so I think that added to this hair loss issue. The hardest part of the hair loss for me has been the going-to-work-in-a-professional-office thing. It's been hard going to work knowing that I look like ****...seriously. I bought a wig online about a month ago and I started out just wearing it for quick trips to the store where I wouldn't necessarily know anyone so that I could get used to the whole idea of it. I couldn't quite get myself to wear it to work though.
This morning when I washed my hair enough more fell out that even "The Donald Comb-Over" wouldn't help so I pulled out the wig and put it on for work. I had butterflies in my stomach over the whole thing and I found out pretty quickly that all my anxieties about wearing a wig were ridiculous because I've had nothing but compliments on my "new hairdo", not to mention the fact that it's a whole lot easier to pull out the wig than it is to try to make "no hair" look like hair.
I found that when I feel like I look better, I actually do feel better. Before when I looked in the mirror, I saw a sick old woman staring back at me and, with the wig, I see...well, I see a sick old woman with great hair staring back at me. :)
I have to give Tippyclubb credit for giving me the push I needed to get out the wig for work. Her simple statement of "Since you bought a wig, you might as well wear it" just seemed so smart. :)
One thing about treatment that I wasn't very prepared for was how it could take a 54 year old who looked 44 and turn her into a 54 year old who looks 80 (strike that), my mother is 80 and she looks better than me right now so I'll have to say 85.