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Wigging out -- it's not so bad.

May 15, 2009 - 1 comments

My hair loss from treatment has been about 80% and I've lost my eyelashes and eyebrows too. (I'll take shot No. 37 tonight - out of 48).   I had thyroid issues early in treatment so I think that added to this hair loss issue.  The hardest part of the hair loss for me has been the going-to-work-in-a-professional-office thing.  It's been hard going to work knowing that I look like ****...seriously.  I bought a wig online about a month ago and I started out just wearing it for quick trips to the store where I wouldn't necessarily know anyone so that I could get used to the whole idea of it.  I couldn't quite get myself to wear it to work though.

This morning when I washed my hair enough more fell out that even "The Donald Comb-Over" wouldn't help so I pulled out the wig and put it on for work.  I had butterflies in my stomach over the whole thing and I found out pretty quickly that all my anxieties about wearing a wig were ridiculous because I've had nothing but compliments on my "new hairdo", not to mention the fact that it's a whole lot easier to pull out the wig than it is to try to make "no hair" look like hair.

I found that when I feel like I look better, I actually do feel better.  Before when I looked in the mirror, I saw a sick old woman staring back at me and, with the wig, I see...well, I see a sick old woman with great hair staring back at me.  :)

I have to give Tippyclubb credit for giving me the push I needed to get out the wig for work.  Her simple statement of "Since you bought a wig, you might as well wear it" just seemed so smart.  :)

One thing about treatment that I wasn't very prepared for was how it could take a 54 year old who looked 44 and turn her into a 54 year old who looks 80 (strike that), my mother is 80 and she looks better than me right now so I'll have to say 85.





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by Tippyclubb, May 15, 2009
I found that when I feel like I look better, I actually do feel better.  Before when I looked in the mirror, I saw a sick old woman staring back at me and, with the wig, I see...well, I see a sick old woman with great hair staring back at me.  :)

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I love that, and how true.  Do you think they knew it was a wig or was it close to your own hair.  Not that it matters--as long as it made you feel, you looked better.  We are the same age 54 in a few weeks.  Feel 75 though so I know what you mean.  I wonder if we'll ever look or feel young again.  This old lady feeling is for the birds.

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