May 18, 2009
Why is it always not a good sign, when your oncologist gets serious.
I saw my oncologist for my pre chemo meeting, my CA125 report is back and it was up again for the 3rd month in a row. March 10.9, April 14.8, May 17.3. he made a point of saying that some women's CA is in the thousands, but It's always been a good indicator of my disease progression, so my oncologist is concerned that Topotecan is no longer working.
My blood values were ok, so we did Topo. today since we won't be sure until i have the CT scans done next week.
Next week is also my week of from chemo, and I'll meet with him to get the results and see where we go from here June 2nd.
He's planning on having Gemzar and Avastin being my next chemo drugs, and it upsets me so much because I realize that going from one drug to another, with no remission is not a good sign.
He gave me a choice to think about, either take a break from chemo, see him every week to monitor me, and watch the CA level and when it hits 25, start chemo. This would give my body and bone marrow a chance to heal a bit.
Or, start chemo immediately with the new drugs, if I would be walking around wondering what's growing in me, or spreading?
I'll pick up the CT scan report before I see him in June, and my husband and I will have discussed our decision. He also said he'll make the final decision for what's best for my treatment plan, but that he knows I've always been involved.
It's scary for us, I don't want to cry although I know it's in there. I'm dealing with this with strength, a strong will, and anger at this "terrorist" as Farah referred to her cancer, and all terrorists must be killed!!!