May 20, 2009
I've started using this journal as a diary. I just always have so much to get off my chest and never really have had a diary before. Today is just going pretty well for me and I have to write about it. I think it's good to keep a record of how I'm doing during my pregnancy I don't want to do that tracker though. I tried and it kept putting things on the wrong dates and wouldn't let me put in information I needed. Anyway. Woke up feeling pretty well today. I been waking up earlier every day. A lot of times I wake up at 6:00am when my husband leave for work. It seems that the earlier I get up in the morning the better I feel. I really hate it when i wake up at 3:00 in the morning and can't get back to sleep though. I wake up in the middle of the night having to go to the bathroom, usually around 3:00 and get so extremely hungry. I'm just so hungry. I can even eat right before going to bed to try and keep this from happening but it still does. Sometimes I can eat and use the bathroom and go right back to sleep but other times I can't. Then I get so tired right about the time my son gets up. I'm real afraid this middle of the night snacking is going to make me gain a whole lot of extra weight that I don't need though. Oh well, I guess, gota do what I gota do. I'm scared that the baby might be starving if I don't eat.
Today was good. awoke at six and had breakfast. Watched a little TV then got a headache and took my medicine. Then got sooo tired. I couldn' t keep my eyes open so took a little nap on the couch while my son watched cartoons. I woke up about an hour later and gave Aries a bath. I took a shower, and then we took a walk to the post office to check the mail. We then went to the park for a while. He played basketball while I read the paper. We then came home and ate and I spent some time on the computer after laying Aries down for a nap. I started feeling sooo sick for no reason at all. I really needed to lay down. So that's exactly what I did and now I feel good again. Getting dinner made while Aries snacks on crackers. He's eating so much lately. He eats like 5 or 6 times a day. Not small meals either.
Aries will eat a bowl of cereal then want some biscuits and eggs or oatmeal or something. Then he'll have a sandwich or two and chips for lunch then takes a nap and when he wakes up he'll snack on crackers until dinner time then eat dinner. He's such a growing boy. He spends all his time playing he's always working off what he eats. He's so skinny even though he eats so much. He only weighs like 38 pounds. Yeah, tiny. Surprisingly his weight is fine for his height though. When we go to the doctor for his well visits his doctor always looks at him like he's too skinny and will ask about it then he looks at his chart and says, "Oh, his weight is fine for his hieght." He looks all skin and bones though. His dad is tiny though. I never even realized it until I saw him gettin gdressed one morning and was like wow you are scrawny. I really don't like scrawny guys but I don't know what I saw in him. It didn't last long though he left me when I got pregnant with Aries. He's never even seen Aries. He don't want to. I don't care. Jaison takes care of him just fine and Aries actually thinks Jaison is his dad. It's best that way. I know someday he'll have to know the truth but for now everything is just okay.