May 23, 2009
today i was in town again, i was in shops for about 40min -1 hour !! i did so well i was relaxed and calm and really enjoyed it! god im finally feeling better! although i upped my meds yesterday to 10mg so the anxiety is kicking in again and it will be bad for a week or so from my experience! but im sure it will be fine, i hope more meds goes well and help me more, cos no one on the forum answered me!! :( i need to prepare for leaving for a while, so need to get myself as good as i can be! anyway back to today, went to town, was sunny and warm and it just felt so lovely i felt normal and not panicky! i went into shops with out even thinking of it really i just thought ok ill go in and then see what happens, not think no i cant go in there! it was nice to think like that again after so long! feel weird now cos i was so scared and freaking out for so long that not feeling that now seems weird and different! how strange is that!!! hope this continues and i will see how the meds go!