May 31, 2009
Its just hit 1:15am Monday morning as im in australia...im finding it hard after not using for 8 short days i cant sleep. Im up until 3 or 4am most mornings, I only sleep about 4 hours a night, Cravings are killing me, but in the long run its better to stop while im young and enjoy the rest of my life, altho the years on drugs did have some very good times it also had some major lows and lost alot of friends when i started using. My life is slowly coming back together after 4 years im thinking of my future and not waking up thinking where im going to get the money from to waist on something i dont really need. Im getting respect back for my parents, my mum had been great, altho she doesnt know the full amount i was using as i didn't want to worry her anymore than i had, she put me through rehab once and has been very understanding.
The last few says have been hell, ive been trying to get out for walking and running in the mornings, but the weather has been so bad hear i cant go out...so im stuck inside as i have no job, but im going for interviews all week.
Ive found that music has helped me a great deal, lets my mind rest and not think much, headaches are a killer as i dont want to take anything fearing that i ll get stuck on them too.
But im just taking one day at a time and im pretty happy so far.