Jun 02, 2009
So I have been aiming to get back into the workout "thing". Having bought a membership to the gym in January...then being diagnosed with DCIS, turns out to be IDC post mastectomy I have not been working out or even walking to work as usual. The size 6 pant suit that was way to big just 1 year ago is now so tight that the pants get the crotch pleats....those of you who have gained a few pounds in a short timeframe know what I am talking about. Just a little too tight in the butt and it makes them pull in all the wrong places.
Meanwhile I have migrating cyst like lumps under my left arm (the arm that had the lymph node disection just 1 month ago). Ugh. Under my middle finger I just found a new one the size of a pea. Freekin' me out. But I have a doc. appt. tomorrow afternoon. I can wait that long.
So back to the point of this journal entry. It is time for my size 6 teatering on a size 8 *** to get back into a workout routine, no matter how challenging to get back into my fit size 2/4 pants. Yes I am almost 30. Yes I do know that I am not fat now. But I also know how I feel and what feels right on my small but long frame. This does not work.
I am going to write all the reasons that I do not work out:
Lack of Time
Feeling gross in my workout clothes/not wanting to be seen in them.
Trouble getting childcare, no way to bring Sophia to the gym.
Getting off work too late/going in too late
Here are all the resolutions to these big rocks:
Plan a time. Set time each week and schedule myself accordingly.
******* wake up! Plan ahead with a gym bag. Plan to be there 2 hours before I need to be to work.
Get over it. I am gonna look chunky until I actually dedicate 4 full weeks. And even then if my body does not immediately react, I need to rethink my eating habits and keep working out. It will eventually make a difference.
Plan to go to the gym early in the a.m. when Cooper has Sophia/ b. run when Cooper gets home and on weekends.
Leave work on time.
Very simple. Now off to look at my schedule. **** I feel bloated today. I am at my breaking point with this **** and I'm not gonna let my 30's hit me like it does many women. No way Jose! I am not going to be a cancer survivor only to be defeated by my only lazy ***.