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Jun 04, 2009 - 0 comments

This is quite painful...

I'm eating raw bird's eye chilli's (the tiny, really, really, spicy ones) because the burning makes me feel a bit better.

I am writing this on my PC laptop, sitting on the porcelain throne and pissing out my arse for the 6th day in a row.

I think I'm going to spend the rest of the day either in the bath or I will go to King's Cross to a massage parlour.

Not looking forward to another few weeks of this - I hope the later w/d's are easier than this.
If I feel like this in 3 weeks time, it will totally ruin our holiday.
We're hiking and climbing and exploring - I can't do that if I've got drug-flu.

What's worse - the pain that I was taking the painkillers for in the first place is coming back with a vengeance...
I was in agony after my shoulder clicked last night - I though I'd dislocated it again (I haven't done that for a few years...) but it's just what it feels like.

Hopefully, when the withdrawals are through, the pain will seem less and be more manageable.

If I can survive being stabbed and shot, I'm sure I can survive the pain that lingers.
Why is it only on my right side that I'm so ****** up..?

Maybe it's because I was born a lefty and school made me write with my right hand.


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