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Dec 05, 2013 - 3 comments

I am feeling so low right now.  Came in second in an interview again, which was my last chance for a while.  I finish my job in two weeks and go back to being a casual on call employee again.  The one person that was still trying to help me try to fix my mistakes has stopped writing back to me.  All the people that didn't make the mistake I did are now starting to hear that they have been successful.  I am seriously depressed over work.  Last year I kept myself going because I thought it was inevitable that I would have another child or a job at this point and I still have neither.  I want to quit it all and cry.  We are looking at puppies on Sunday and trying to decide if we can finally move on since our dear Wookie passed 2 1/2 years ago.  I'm hoping it is going to be a positive meeting.  Then there is my MIL with terminal cancer.  I can't stand all of this going on in my life.  When is the horrible going to go away? I hate being such a bummer and the look and aaawwww people give me when they get bad news from me again.  I think I'm repelling people.

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by JennyB0125, Dec 05, 2013
I am so sorry you have struggling & having such a hard time, I wish there were something I could do to help. I really hope things turn around for you, because you deserve good things to happen, you have had more than your fair share of bad.

If you need to vent feel free to inbox me, Ill do my best to offer support & an ear, and maybe some advice.  
Hugs!!

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by Des_a_rae, Dec 05, 2013
I'm so sorry things have been going this way for you for such a long time.  I know it's got to be hard to deal with and just feeling like things will never pick up.  Things will get better!  You can always message me! If you need my phone number to talk, by all means please ask, I don't mind at all.  I know what it's like to feel that way.  We found out after Brian taking clomid for 6 months to "Improve" his bad count and poor quality that he has NO sperm now.  It's very disheartening and depressing.  Can you find a different job?  Can you take a break from work for awhile?  I don't know if that's even an option but it just seems like the job you have now causes you so much stress and anxiety. :(   I really hope and pray that things start picking up for you.  Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers.  Sending you hugs!!  

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by Sherri90049, Dec 05, 2013
Oh Patti, I so feel your pain. Our situations have alot of similarities actually. I know how hard it is really hard to stay positive. All I wanted to do was DE, and now I can't even do that. I just keeping doing my best to improve the situation and pray things will turn around. I wish I had some words of wisdom for you. Just really wanted to let you know that you're not alone. You can always PM or call me. If you have Skype, my ID is SherriOlson. Hang in there. I do believe that eventually things will get better. But like you, I would like it to be a little faster. Big hugs!!!

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