Dec 05, 2013
I am feeling so low right now. Came in second in an interview again, which was my last chance for a while. I finish my job in two weeks and go back to being a casual on call employee again. The one person that was still trying to help me try to fix my mistakes has stopped writing back to me. All the people that didn't make the mistake I did are now starting to hear that they have been successful. I am seriously depressed over work. Last year I kept myself going because I thought it was inevitable that I would have another child or a job at this point and I still have neither. I want to quit it all and cry. We are looking at puppies on Sunday and trying to decide if we can finally move on since our dear Wookie passed 2 1/2 years ago. I'm hoping it is going to be a positive meeting. Then there is my MIL with terminal cancer. I can't stand all of this going on in my life. When is the horrible going to go away? I hate being such a bummer and the look and aaawwww people give me when they get bad news from me again. I think I'm repelling people.