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A Better Self

Jan 08, 2014 - 0 comments














I am starting this food diary in order to help me become more aware of what I am putting into my body, and how much of it I am putting in it. I have always had a problem with overeating as a result of stress and I guess that I am just tired of always being the "fat" friend among my social peers. No, Actually I know I am.

I have really only been "skinny" one time in my life, and it was only because I took a diet drug called Phentermine for 2-years to get me there. When the Phentermine stopped working, all that weight came back--with a vengeance. This time I want to lose the weight without the drugs.

God, only knows what all those years of abuse has done to my body already, and the older I get the more important I feel it is to take care of myself.

I am going to try really hard to make better decisions this time around too. No more partying or indulging in the immorality that I felt I was entitled to back "in the day." My body is my own. I know now that being skinny and socially accepted just isn't everything its cracked up to be. I need to be me, if I am healthier then that is all that matters. Being single, and alone isn't anything to be ashamed of--in fact its the most simple form of existence.

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